Jan 10 2009
If You Think It’s True … It’s Probably True
Something I’ve been meaning to write about is gut instincts.
Those funny little feelings that tell your stomach something is true - even if your heart doesn’t want to believe it.
I had those gut feelings about Craig using. But after being married for over two decades - I wanted to believe my heart more …
Even though I would not consider myself an enabler. I did justify to myself not following up on my gut instincts:
- He’s not spending any money on it.
- He’s a night owl … with an erratic work schedule.
- He’s always been a sort of wild & crazy personality type.
- He’s not getting skinny.
- He’s not displaying any of the ‘typical’ signs of meth use.
But you know what? Facts are facts. He was using anyway - just like my gut instinct was trying to tell me. I should have listen more quickly. It would have possibly saved myself, our sons, and even Craig some pain. Or maybe not - I don’t know? But I do know that I will always be more vigilant at listening to my gut instincts.
Because if I think it’s true … it’s probably true!
